what i am looking for

truth can be lost in deepest helpless darkness, and can be found there again 

“Women think of all colors except the absence of color. I have said that black has it all. White too. Their beauty is absolute. It is the perfect harmony.” 
- Coco Chanel

place to be, place to fly,


night flight

bird flight
the bird flies to God. that God's name is ......

bird flight, night flight

each stroke of the brush scratches my heart



R.I.P ... my dearest grandma

jan 26, 1913 - sep 13, 2012


one day this pain will make sense to me

'Life doesn't require ideals. It requires standards of action.' ― Haruki Murakami, Norwegian Wood

'I'm selfish, impatient and a little insecure. I make mistakes, I am out of control and at times hard to handle. But if you can't handle me at my worst, then you sure as hell don't deserve me at my best.'
-  Marilyn Monroe


* Filippo Vassallo * ... my portrait

Filippo Vassallo's beautiful digital portrait of me ♥

thank you very much Filippo ... loving it xx

video of my art

please check out those videos of my artwork ... ♥

the one below is my dear friend Kate Soho's video of my earlier works !!
thank you so much Kate ... ♥ ♥


september sky

suddenly, last summer

... used to dig on this at my teenage, and it's still my favorite ... ♥

SuddenlyLast Summer, Tennessee Williams

shifting more to fall

not exactly perfect, but definitely a new day



ready for shipping to netherlands ... ♥

framed at FLATFILE http://flatfile.jp/

chicken curry ... ♥

mentaiko ... ♪

... from hakata ☆

being an artist (female)

some criticize that many female artists believe that they need to be attractive to be successful. 
well...i actually know that attracting people does not boost careers as an artist...i am so sick of people who sends me messages saying that they want
 to have my show, want to buy my art, want to use my painting to a vinyl jacket printing, want to interview with me, things like that, and do noting apart from trying to get my email and phone number, to date with me.

ironically, being liked or recognized as charming or appealing gains and keeps audience attention somehow, even if those values are so irrelevant to creating good art and building respect (and this is not only the case of female artist, but also of some male artists). artists definitely need audiences, like music business. without audiences, art is just a hobby. in fact, there are some successful pretty female artists in japan, who effectively utilize their beauty to promote their art, as well as creating beautiful art. one artist for example actually uses the expression meaning "too beautiful artist" as a pr catch phrase repeatedly, and many people like and enjoy it. those artists obtain fame and money, which are not necessarily related to accomplishment but bring them more artistic freedom and opportunities. yes...why not, many artists want that freedom and opportunities too... anyway this is just one of the aspects of art world (in my country).


korea - japan #2

this is a copy of an article about south krean "comfort women" during the war, on the september 2 issure of sankei newspaper.
it says there was no fact of those women being moved forcibly to be on the duty.
... again, i cannot believe anything yet... no one seems to be able to prove what they say is true completely.
but at least i can say one thing. women do anything to survive under the situation of war, whether it is forced or not.
and also i can definitely say that i don't want any more war. i think i have a right to speak out this even if our government has been crap.


china - korea - japan

...just read the interview of korean prof. 呉 善花 (of takushoku univ.) and japanese journalist 石平, on the latest issue of bunshun magazine, regarding the islands, 尖閣諸島 and 独島/竹島.


also, read another article in the same magazine about the act of korean president.

... i am still confused to be honest.

all i want is the truth. where is the truth?

a truth can be white for a certain person, also can be black for the other.
... most of the time, a truth is not black and white, more like black and gray.

shifting to fall

some madness and reason

a summer's day

gentiana for my dear friend...

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artist page ... now open ♥